salty tears

Tonight I have tears…the taste…salty…

I have regrets-I abused your hospitality, kindness and thoughtful attention because I had been capricious; I couldn’t be able to keep my words but broke them again, and again. At the bare think of you, I couldn’t help to burst into tear. I weep the tears of sorrow and regret.

Only then did I realize that I had been wrong for many things. I didn’t think it and feel it in my mind whenever you showed your thoughtful attention; I didn’t show more thought for you more than myself; I was not considerate enough to think it and feel it whenever you were under stress; I didn’t learn how to be considerate and non-demand by heart; I was not humble for the advises given by you; I couldn’t be able to keep my temper under control; otherwise I would not have thoughtless acts.

Everyday, every moment that goes by, I think of you. My brain tells me that it may be the time to let you go, but my heart says I can't stop loving you. I spend all day dreaming of the moment you would forgive me and give me a chance to make it up. I can't stop loving you. I don't know how to stop. I fight this feeling, but try as I might, I can't win. You’ve captured my heart and my heart won't be able to escape from your grasp.  Every morning when the sun goes out to shine, I feel so sad and lonely and all I'm thinking is that I need your forgiveness and I need you back, for you are the most important person in my life and nothing will ever change that.

I work, I walk, I travel in such a crowed city, but my heart is empty. You said you would call me. Day and night I gaze at my phone and my heart will beat extremely whenever I see any call. Again, again, and again…I still have a hope that one day you may call me, right?

I love you so deeply that even words tonight cannot express them  enough.