A cup of Lavender for myself…tonight

I just find that I haven’t had a cup of lavender for myself for a long time. I have been fallen in love with lavender for many years, and I love its scent. I love to have a cup of lavender tea especially in the night time. It can calm my mind and brings me a balance thoughts and emotions. It is so wonderful….

Now love has become a main topic in my life, and the poems that I have written reflect my attitude to love. I sometimes found that I was childish, I was immature. I am conscientious, I am heedless, I am ebullient, I am fidgeted, I am glum, and so on. Oh, sometimes my baby is same as me. We are grouchy. Love is like stock market. Sometimes bull market, sometimes bear market J Anyhow we know one thing that the more we care of each other, the more communication we need to have. I should be sobered down a lot as I have got older. It is better to go all the ways to do for love, not only keep saying “love” often? However that is undoubted that every second we have together is deserved to treasure.

(Let me have my lavender for a while…)

I will graduate next semester, and to graduate with honor is a top priority. If I can do that, I would like to show my achievement to my grandmother first. She is a paralytic and has had to stay in hospital for a long period of time. My parents don’t even understand my deep feelings for my grandma…I think I get used to their style. I won’t show my pathos in front of them, because they only want a child with strong will, great effort and high achievement.  After I promised them to try my best for my bachelor degree, I have forced myself to go for it no matter I like or not. It is enough if they feel happy with what I have done, In which field should I go after my graduation? I would like to be a teacher, but I think it will be an earthquake. However, since I have my love here, I won’t leave my baby alone….

(Well, I almost finish my lavender tea…)

One friend complained to me that she was kicked out of classroom because of being late 6 minutes. She said, “how come she did that to me? Only 6 minutes! “I looked at her and said, “It is your fault, so how come you complained about other people? Being late was a fact, and your teacher didn’t do something wrong. Being punctual is your responsibility! “.  “But she said nothing to other students who were late as well!” “Don’t compare with others! If I were your teacher, I would do the same thing.”

My friend stopped to talk to me.

Am I wrong to response my friend in that way? Is it wrong to be frank to friend? Why do many people only like to listen to good words? We all wear mask because we are human being.

I think we don’t need to hide our true feeling and emotion in front of the person whom we are close to. No one can display good side forever; in contrast, we can understand people more from different sides and under different situations.

( ok, finish my lavender…that is all for tonight J )