I didn't reach for tissue as the Australian correspondent said in the article, but I did cry along with Roger Federer, even before he exclaimed "God, it's killing me".
Obviously, it was another heart-breaking match for "Fedex" fans, following last year's Wimbledon. Since he became the professional tennis player, it has not been really often that his fans see him beaten on his courts, particularly hard and grass courts.
I was so mad when seeing him lose his Wimbledon championship to Spain's Raphael Nadal, as I didn't understand why he lost on grass.
But I felt pity for Federer last Sunday when he lost the Australian championship to Nadal. Nadal was great for his compliment to Federer as one of the greatest players, but Federer also had himself to blame for the defeat.
Star TV commentator VJ said Federer should have stopped the backhand slides. I agreed. It was like watching Paradorn tried again and again to make his drop shots work. Fed was doing the same thing, but the results were not so successful. His forehands which beat Andy Roddick and others also missed the baselines several times. It's not what we saw in previous matches against other players.
Like what we saw from "The Sopranos", Federer must have panic attacks whenever he met Nadal. He said before the match that rivalry in sports is good. Yeah, as Nadal snatched the world's No.1 position from him, it's good for him to fight back.
So, I didn't understand why he lost, though he was so good at earlier matches. Nadal was quite good at stretching Fed, but if Fed were not that tense, he could have done better.
Still, I cried along with Fed. He could have won the tournament and earned the 14th Grand Slam title, like what many, including John McEnroe and Pete Sampras, said.
Certainly, he could beat Sampras in terms of titles. But as he is destined to meet Nadal more often, how that would be achieved if he does not get over the panic attack.
While writing this, I cried for him. For all these years of watching tennis, I think he is the best in terms of techniques and emotional equilibrium on court. I still believe in him, despite the loss. I sincerely hope that he would overcome the panic attack the next time he encounters Nadal. Or, he won't achieve what he's destined to.