To my dearest The Nation,

Now it’s time for me to leave you.
By the time I write this letter, the resignation document must have reached its destination.

I’ve been thinking in the past few years that we might be apart one day. But you know, it’s never been easy for me. After several days of sleepless nights, I feel obliged to tell you the truth. Please don’t tell others, because this is a very personal message I have for you.  It's only for you, not someone else.

It is hard, still, to describe all my feelings for so many things happened over the past 15 years. And some warned me that I might get homesick. That could be the case as you’ve been “home” to me for so long.

It seems to be unkind, though understandable, for me to leave you at the time when life isn’t that easy. I’ve never meant to be unkind. Also, it’s easy for one to blame the other for the reason he or she is leaving. But that’s not my choice today. I have nothing to blame you at all.

I remembered the first day I saw you as a stranger, when I was also feeling that I might not suit you. The feeling that I might not belong to you lasted almost the first entire year. And I recalled the days I’d desperately struggled to get along. Actually, I’d been hesitated to continue my journey with you. But once I made it for the second year, I knew no other better place that I really wanted to stay. Some attractive places did distract me, but I finally insisted to stay.

I’ve always believed and will believe in what you’ve shaped me to. Aside from a home, you’re my school where teachers’ standard is quite tough. I’m not the best student of you though. I actually hated to admit to myself that my grade hasn’t been that good compared to some of your best. And when I looked up to them, I just envied.

But what I got from being with you for a long time was much more than I could imagine earlier. I couldn’t help as this has eventually also contributed to my pride and my ego. Let me tell you something. No matter how much exhausted or bored with daily routines, I’ve been proud representing you and I’ll still be proud to be an alumnus of you.

If there’s some intelligence in me, it came from you. Thank you.
If I have any good friends and colleagues, they came because of you. Thank you
If I have any good experiences and visions in this wide world, they came from you. Thank you.
If anyone sees me as good asset to contribute to them, it’s because of you. Thank you.
If my parents are proud of me in terms of career, it’s because of you. Thank you.
If anyone would admire that I’m capable, I got it from you. Thank you.

Well, there’re still a lot of things to thank for. There’re so many things to talk about. But I would end it here and would like you to know that what I’ve said is straight from the bottom of my trembling heart. I’ll always be missing you.

Goodbye
Jiwamol