Things I miss the most:

1. My wife and kids. I dream about them... and I wish I didn't, coz I feel so blue in the morning... when I wake up and I don't see them, it makes me angry... and sad... When I go back, I'm really going to be nice to them. Especially to my wife... I feel so bad about the way I've been, although it doesn't mean I was particularly nasty to her, but I just feel I haven't done enough...

2. My parents, and my brothers. My mom was so worried about me... and she had every right reasons to be worried. I hate it when she worries...  

3. Usual food... Tom yam noodle... Kao man kai... anything from food court in any shopping mall... I used to be choosy, but right now, I really don't care.. I want to order everything from the menu... chinese restaurant...

4. Snacks from 7-11. Pringles, Lays, chocolate bars, coke, sprite, orange juice... oh, and the jelly bears. Pizza... Italian food from Pan Pan... juicy steaks... ah... food....

5. Quietness... here, everywhere you go, it's so noisy... people talking so loud... but most of all, the sound of power generator is everywhere... it's like a diesel train is parked right next to you and reving at full steam all the time... but I can't complain coz it's either that or black out.

6. Clean air... besides the smell of people, the air here is filled with exhaust fume from poorly maintained cars... the worst is the fume from those generators... if you stand outside for awhile, your eyes become sore and you want to stop breathing...

7. My car... the cars here are so badly maintained... it hurts to be in a car coz the road is really bumpy and the cars are so... ah... I miss my car.... with cool aircon and nice radio... smooth ride and smooth road... suddenly everything about Thailand is like a dream... a very luxurious dream....

8. Peace of mind.... Everyone here is trying to cheat you one way or another. They say if you stay here long enough, you get used to it, but I don't plan to stay long enough. So I'm always weary that something might go wrong and I wake up in the middle of nowhere with only my underwear.

9. Confidence... Back home, I can be anywhere, at anytime and still feel confident. But here, I'm only safe within the hotel gates... It's like being in a prison.

10. Oh, I miss my bathroom... clean, big, bright... with running water.. hot and cold... with soap that smells like my wife...

I will have all these things when I go back... and I only have 2 more nights left before I board the plane, so if I just hold tight, and ride out the rest of the stay, I'll be fine.